Happy Mothers Day! ^

Today is my very first mothers day, and I must say, this feeling of joy is overwhelming.

Today, I have also decided to share something, that very few people know. This is something that we (Jonathan & I) have kept mostly to ourselves, and something most family has no idea about. I don't know why we decided to stay quiet about it for so long, or why I even feel the need to share it now, but I do.

Three and a half years ago when we got married, we knew that we both wanted children. It had been something we both talked about for a long time. We decided to leave it in God's hands, and we did.

After 6 months of marriage, nothing happened. This is when I started to become concerned. We waited it out and found out that sometimes it can take over a year.

A year passed, and still nothing.

I went to see my doctor while we were living in New Brunswick in Summer 2008, and he was determined to "get to the bottom of this".

I got a call in mid December and finally got an appointment to see a fertility specialist on February 15th 2009.

I was scheduled to move back to Ontario February 12th. Needless to say, I couldn't go to the appointment.

Jonathan had already left for Basic training, and we knew that Battle school was looming around the corner, so I just gave up.

After all, the timing obviously wasn't right.

in April 2009 when I was hospitalized for a ruptured ovarian cyst, and after undergoing several pregnancy tests to rule out a possible tubular pregnancy, I was told that my chances of ever conceiving were slim to none.

Jonathan was away, and I was heartbroken, and alone.

Barely two weeks later, Jonathan suspected something was up, and begged me to take a home pregnancy test.

I was extremely reluctant, but did it anyway.

May 8, 2009 is when we found out about our little miracle.

(A year ago, yesterday - awesome coincidence!)

The hospitals tests were wrong.

I had been pregnant all along.

So today, on this Mother's Day,

I celebrate how blessed I am to have her,

not how blessed she is to have me.

I celebrate the joy she has put into my heart,

and the joy she will continue to give me for the rest of our lives.

I am ready for those bumpy roads with open arms and a caring heart.

No matter what the future holds,

She will forever be the light in my life.

I am a mother because of her, and that is the greatest blessing I could ever ask for.

Thank you, my darling daughter..

As an unnecessary (but VERY much appreciated) 'Thank You' from my amazing husband, today I woke up to breakfast in bed..

Flowers..

The most beautiful card EVER - Only I get to read the inside :)

AND a Spa Day..

I also got Pj's, candy, chocolate, and a candle. Spoiled much?

Tonight he has made reservations for dinner, and apparently there is one more surprise!

Eat your heart our ladies, he is ALL mine!

I just wanted to wish EVERY mother & mother-to-be out there,

a very happy Mother's Day.

This is a truly special day for both you and your children.

Don't ever forget that joy & remember that you are just as blessed to have them, as they are blessed to have you!